Relearning an instrument can be so frustrating.

For the first time in seven years, I attempted to play piano. I totally suck. I didn’t expect that I’d pick up where I left off but I just feel… I don’t know. I guess I feel like I just totally let myself down. I use to play several different instruments and I was pretty decent at playing them. Then I just quit and now I can’t remember how to play any of them. This opens the door to all these other feelings of self betrayal and shit like that.

If I had stuck with things, I could probably be somewhere today. I had a lot of potential as a child. Then, as I got older, I became totally jaded when I realised the world sucks and I just stopped giving a fuck about my future.

*ramble ramble ramble* Anyway…

It was easy to get a grasp of some general notes and I was able to play some simple pieces. Now I feel like I’m just complicating things for myself. I guess I should just start off from a beginners point of view and pretend that I’ve never played. It may be more simple to learn things and progress from there.